04.27.01
A Break In Time
Well that was a month. Let’s see if I can wrap this up:
Boy meets rock god, boy looses job. Boy gets unrequested job offers, boy chooses between one job that offers financial security, and one that offers very cool projects. Boy chooses very cool projects. Boy gets job for 93 minutes. Boy’s boss tells boy that job has been taken away for budget issues. Boy gets depressed, freelance work piles up for boy. Boy ends up taking financially secure job which starts May 1.
This past month I’ve felt like a balloon in a hurricane. Down drafts sending me straight for the rocks, up drafts sending me to the stratosphere. I don’t have a very moody personality normally. Sure I have my moments, but this month has been nothing quite like I’ve felt before.
Hence, no journal updates for the past 28 days. 28 days since my life became a weather phenomenon. It feels like a year has passed. It hasn’t helped that I’ve lost most of my sense of time. 5 weekdays and 2 day weekends mean very little when you’re unemployed. But worse yet, my sleep schedule has gone utterly haywire. I’m staying up till dawn, sleeping through naps caught during the odd hour. It’s hellish on me and doesn’t do much for Amy either.
Wow, she’s done so much for me and my emotional stability this past 4 weeks. She’s supported me in ways that she doesn’t even recognize. She is, was and will be my touchstone, my contact with that reality that exists outside my ever-more-cramped mind.
“Baby, when you’ve got to sleep
lay your head down low
don’t let the world lay heavy on your soul.
cause when you’ve got to sleep, you’ve got to sleep.” – Spz.
Thank you Love. Oh, did I forget that part? The boy gets the girl…